## Jan 1st, 2021 Goals ![[Photos/Pasted image 20210109121901.png|70]] ![[Photos/Pasted image 20210109121912.png|70]] ## Jan 8th, 2021 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 3.5 Work | 4 Play | 5 Love | 2.5 Self Respect | 4 ``` 2020 Q4 ended low for me with a nasty December. Have a clear plan to publish and grow in the next year. Seeing the lines between my work is helping me clarify my ideas with Obsidian. Broken pinky toe is healing slow. Still locked down in pandemic. Plenty of time for self care recently, some at the expense of work. Hoping Martin recovers quickly. The past 6 weeks feel like 6 months. 1. [[GotAudio]] 1. Martin's Accident accelerated the plan to sell 2. Building out the Podcast Agency Playbook, centered around the roles post, to help increase value 3. I don't really want new clients 2. [[ClickDown Alpha]] 1. Need to finish the digital launch presence 2. Discord is up 3. Calendar needs to get moving by EOM 3. B8FMI 1. Partnership has been strained from poor communication 2. Stalled since Thanksgiving 3. RSS feed is recovering well 4. Needs a clear plan 4. [[PSMRCC]] 1. This is the true GOTaudio path forward 2. TBD - Finish Business/Growth plan 5. [[GOTLife (2021-2022)]] 1. Working on the AAA1 which will be key for building out B8FMI, [[ClickDown Alpha]], [[PSMRCC]] 2. GotBook has been stalled for the past few months, but I think that Obsidian is helping push it out. Recently added Niching By Degrees 3. Obsidian is really helping to BBS-->S Faster ## Jan 9th, 2021 When I think about the next phase of Gentof.tech. I think about a podcasting community, an operations community, and a business of businesses community. All running on triple A one playbooks with their own unique flavors. Each one managed by their own operator, allowing me to work on other work, evagelize, and consult. That's what I want for my life at the moment. Outside of that. I want to surround myself with people who love me, and who I care about. Who make me better, and who I can help make better as well. I want to get healthier. I want to drop another 20 pounds. I want to work out more often. I want to get out in the sun more. I want to more consistently publish content. ## Jan 10th, 2021 Martin took medical leave today due to his injuries. I was worried he was pushing himself too hard, and it turned out he was. That leaves me as pretty much a solopreneur. It doubles the need to either exit CFC or finish the redesign and push it into PSMRC. I'll miss having him on the team, but hope he returns in the future. His words didn't encourage that though. %% ## Jan 12th, 2021 Convo WIth AJ: https://otter.ai/u/VzlStxnnt6fUYEiIZhKIoxmqQTs Journal: https://otter.ai/u/lGtKrljMcMF1V4RKJbZP6HylX8Y My first slack messages were a good more aggressive towards my own victimization. The below were edited/added between 5 and 8pm. Slack Messages To AJ After: ![[Photos/Pasted image 20210114113208.png]]%% ## Jan 13th, 2021 It's been a hard 72 hours or so since I last checked in here. I think I'm nearing my low point, yesterday was the worst emotion I can remember feeling. I think I might be a little depressed even. ```md Aspect | Score ------------ | ------------ Health | 3 Work | 2 Play | 2 Love | 2 Self Respect | 3 ``` I made the decision to shut down CFC Agency after starting to speak with clients and trying to pick up the pieces of Martin's Accident. I don't think I ever should've gone into agency work, group coaching would've been lighter weight and easy to build as a content site. Didn't know the asset value difference at the time though. ## Jan 14th, 2021 XXY canceled our meeting today. After we spoke on 1/12/2021, I've not been in a great mood. ```md Aspect | Score ------------ | ------------ Health | 3 Work | 1 Play | 2 Love | 3 Self Respect | 2 ``` ## Feb 14th, 2021 It's Valentines Day, I've got cookies from XYX which are tasty. Had some company yesterday which was quite nice as well. About to start daily writing with [[1. Ship30For30]]. Working on my first one now. It's been a slump, but I'm coming out with a vengeance. Big Updates - I'm 95% out of B8F - I've listed CFC and the related GOTaudio Digital Services Assets - I took a chunk of time off for recovery and self care - It's cold today ```md Aspect | Score ------------ | ------------ Health | 4 Work | 3 Play | 3 Love | 3 Self Respect | 4 ``` ## Mar 14th, 2021 Had some solid foundations to growth on Twitter this month, started writing and recording a lot more. [[1. Ship30For30]] was a great challenge and a mediocre course, but I'm confident the March/April Implementation will be an massive upgrade to handle the scale. Handling grief from JR and AR well. Big Updates - Should be out of B8F this month - Couple leads on [[GotAudio]] Sale, but I'm really considering making it a coaching/community sites and selling the other domains as mini agency kits - [[4. Archive/2023 and Earlier/zzRoles I'm Hiring For/Growth Operations Assistant]] - [[Lessons & Plan For Twitter]] are publicly documented ```md Aspect | Score ------------ | ------------ Health | 3 - Poor Eating, not spending enough time walking Work | 4 - building new cashflows, audience engagement and community growth Play | 4 - I think I'm finding a good balance Love | 3 - Sometimes I think XXY is purposefully teasing me Self Respect | 3 - I don't follow enough of my own advice, dicipline down ``` ## April 3rd, 2021 Had a rough back half of March due to a family loss. Making it back slowly to work. JR/AR made it double bad. No change overall, still grinding - just been a stormy Q1. ```md Aspect | Score ------------ | ------------ Health | 3 - Poor Eating, not spending enough time walking Work | 4 - building new cashflows, audience engagement and community growth Play | 4 - I think I'm finding a good balance Love | 3 - Sometimes I think XXY is purposefully teasing me Self Respect | 3 - I don't follow enough of my own advice, dicipline down ``` ## April 24th, 2021 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 3 - Poor Eating, rainy/snow has kepy me inside Work | 2.5 - B8F and CFC sales have slowed, CFC production deal closed, working on getting the remainder listed on Flippa Play | 5 - maybe too much play right now Love | 4 - I feel really good about my self and relationships right now, had a spiritual breakthrough on 4/12 after italian happy hour Self Respect | 4 - I feel firm in my self ``` 2020 Q4 carried into Q1 2021, and pretty much nothing has been wrapped up to my satisfaction. I may or may not have stakes in 2 active regulated businesses, despite my efforts to clarify the stakes and exit them both. I had a spiritual revelation about my position and purpose in life, which I think I will lead me to be a much more balanced individual. I've severely cut back THC usage by well over over 90% now. It has a noticeable effect on my performance for multiple days after dosages in excess of even 50MG. CBD usage is staying level in the 2-300mg range, but I'm working to bring that down as well. ![[Photos/Pasted image 20210424102704.png]] My goal this quarter are simple: right the ship and launch the new projects. 1. [[DTMCSMI]] 1. #CreatorSpaces is building to launch in May 2. DTM has had a few bites, but nothing really solid yet - I think it needs a messaging pivot to target small and niche digital media operators of all sorts 3. MI Manifesto should be publishable next draft, twitter account ready, working on list of people to profile 2. [[ClickDown Alpha]] 1. Stalled, been ramping up to launch this week by getting ghost setup 3. [[GOTLife (2021-2022)]] 1. Second shot is a little over a week out, looking forward to seeing the world again 4. [[GotAudio]] 1. wrapped up, now in archive ## June 16th, 2021 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 3 - Eating poorly still Work | 4 - Clear path forward, moving to monetize Play | 4 - Still solid Love | 4 - Good Self Respect | 5 - Good ``` It's been longer than I thought since I last checked in here, a lot has changed. ![[Photos/Pasted image 20210424102704.png]] I've got the biphasic down, as well the meeting new people and email. Fewer donuts, but still too much sugar. Honed my search on modern industrialists and have a shortlist I'm going after now. #1 on it is a COS position. ## Sept 21st, 2021 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 3 - Eating poorly still Work | 3 - Clear path forwarded, but overcommitted with current output Play | 2 - Almost nonexistent Love | 3 - I don't feel loved at home Self Respect | 4 - Good, but being home hurts ``` I've moved back to parents while my new place gets vacated. Work is trending in the right direction, but I'm feeling a real lack of focus. I need to wrap things up with AJ, but have a mental block around doing so. MB has started paying his debt on a 24 month installment plan. I feel like I have fewer friends and the ones I have are growing distant. I think in reality I'm distancing myself from them. Living at home, with my mother, makes me feel less worthy and more like a failure (even though I'm not by any measure except hers). That's cascading throughout my life. It's like she doesn't want me to succeed. ## Oct 11th, 2021 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 3.5 - Cooking more Work | 3 - Many options forward, but need to dedicate to one in particular. Play | 2 - Almost nonexistent Love | 2 - I don't feel loved at home Self Respect | 3.5 - Being home hurts ``` My place is vacated and being renovated. Work is trending in the right direction, but I'm still unfocused. I've cut a number of projects, but the path is less clear than I'd like. Home life is still draining, but I'm hopeful I'll be moving out soon. It's really impacted my work and overall bandwidth. I've worked on renewing and growing my friendships, but my inner life is defiantly still in decay. I haven't quite figured out a good way to solve for it, but have begun meditating again. ## Nov 11th, 2021 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 2 - Eating too much with Bday, and not enough vegetables Work | 3.5 - Stll need to dedicate to one in particular, but progress Play | 2.5 - Still low, but enough to keep moving Love | 3 - On the mend, need more self-love Self Respect | 4 - Improving as I deepen my understanding of self ``` I can move as soon as painting is done. Then start kitchen renovation. Work is trending in the right direction, but I'm still unfocused. In the final stages of trimming projects. Restarting Clickdown and personal Twitter growth Home life is still draining, but I'm hopeful I'll be moving out soon. Still heavy impact on bandwidth Inner life and self are in renewal, would like to start reconnecting with STL friends sooner than later but want to be moved first. ## Dec 14th, 2021 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 3 - Eating too much, but ore balanced. Overweight. Work | 3.5 - Stll need to dedicate to one in particular, but progress Play | 3.5 - Still low, but enough for the moment Love | 3 - On the mend, need more self-love Self Respect | 4 - Improving as I deepen my understanding of self ``` Have not finished. Took over most of project from dad. Moving faster now as I bring in new painters and such. Rented an AirBNB for the next few weeks. Work is trending in the right direction, but I'm still unfocused. In the final stages of trimming projects. Hired new ghostwriter for test run. Doing NoCode streams with Will C. Feel in limbo with J, need to either double down on community for him or jump ship. Home life is still draining, but I'm moving out tomorrow. Still heavy impact on bandwidth. Inner life and self are in renewal, but still a bit rough overall. ## Mar 25th, 2022 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 3 - Eating too much, but balanced. Overweight. Work | 4 - FT job eats time, but wokring on moving side projects and enjoy the constraint Play | 4 - Getting better, D moved back to the city Love | 4.5 - Strong overall Self Respect | 4.5 - Very happy with where and who I am ``` House is almost done with main rehab. Windows, insulation, and fence still in progress (and expensive) Very much enjoying the days I row for 20-40min. Went FT with J, now doing other projects on the side. Getting into that hustle&grind is rough, but I need the discipline. Enjoying living by myself immensely. Inner life and self are deep into renewal, expecting them to reach 5s in the near term. ## May 4th, 2022 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 4 - Balanced diet, needs calorie restriction. Overweight. Working out 5x/week. Work | 4 - FT job eats time, but enjoy the constraint. Definitely learning. NC & Twit moving. Play | 4 - Solid, D moved back to the city. Going to start hosting parties soon. Love | 4.5 - Strong across the board. Needs a LT partner to reach a 5. Self Respect | 5 - Very happy with where and who I am ``` Fence is being build and kitchen will operational in the next 5 days. Very much enjoying the days I row for 20-40min. Walks are great too though. Need to stretch/yoga more often so I regain flexibility and start lifting again. Now doing other projects on the side. The discipline is starting to show. NC is moving to relaunch end of Q. Loving my Tovala, makes it much easier to avoid eating out. Self respect is back at a 5, been ~yr since it hit that last. I think I'm finally breaking out of my slump. ## May 23rd, 2022 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 4 - Balanced diet, needs calorie restriction. Overweight. Working out 5x/week. Work | 3 - FT job eats time, but enjoy the constraint. Definitely learning. NC & Twit moving. Play | 4 - Solid, D moved back to the city. Going to start hosting parties soon. Love | 4.5 - Starting to date again. Needs a LT partner to reach a 5. Self Respect | 5 - Very happy with where and who I am ``` Kitchen is so close to done!!! Daily exercise + Tovala is paying off , starting to lose weight. Working on building time back in for reading/writing and less time on screens after work. Had some family stuff come up with SG, but making it through everything slowly. Need to refocus side projects on $ and passion. If they don't energize me, drop them? Concerns over long term FT Job viability, starting to spread feelers around elsewhere. ## July 6th, 2022 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 3 - Balanced diet, needs calorie restriction. Overweight. Mid Fast. Bad Sleep (Puppy) Work | 3 - FT job eats time, but enjoy the constraint. Twit + NC Slow. Play | 3.5 - Solid, D moved back to the city. No parties. Tired from pup. Love | 4.5 - Starting to date again. Needs a LT partner to reach a 5. Self Respect | 5 - Very happy with where and who I am ``` Kitchen is so close to done!!! Dan is slow as fuck though. Just need him to turn on the gas. Working on building time back in for reading/writing and less time on screens after work. Need to catch up on reading. Still doing too many things, but working on cutting them out one by one. ## Sept 18, 2022 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 3.5 - Balanced diet, needs calorie restriction. Overweight. Trending right. Work | 4 - Strong directional movement Play | 4.5 - Too much? Love | 4.5- Strong. Self Respect | 5 - Very happy with where and who I am ``` Life is largely on track. Had Covid. Wrapping up at GX, then Clickdown 90% + the Nocodery/P369 on the side as 3-fee tasks. All for content to service ClickDown. Going to use my newfound time to focus on health. I want ClickDown to do 100k this year. Figure that'll be 12-15 implementations, so goal is to sell about 1/week. ## Oct 18, 2022 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 3 - Balanced diet, needs calorie restriction. Overweight. Sprained Ankle. Work | 4 - Strong directional movement Play | 4 - Too much? Love | 4.5- Strong. Self Respect | 5 - Very happy with where and who I am ``` Focused on ClickDown's success. Collecting commitments is easy, but collecting the cash is harder. Working on it while continuing content is a fine balance. ## Nov 2, 2022 ```md Aspect | Score (Out of 5) ------------ | ------------ Health | 3.5 - Balanced diet, needs calorie restriction. Overweight. Work | 4 - Strong directional movement Play | 4 - Too much? Love | 4.5- Strong. Self Respect | 5 - Very happy with where and who I am ``` ClickDown booked $20K last month. I can't believe I made it to 30. Still feel like I'm 18 - I know nothing. I'm also more excited about the future than I've even been before. I think I was pretty depressed last year and didn't realize it. CD needs to boost ACV/yr to ~40-50K if we want a good shot at hitting the $2.5MM goal next year. P360 needs to operationalize, but should be clear to 4x over the next 12 months from there.